in the spirit of change, locally speaking

I'm trying to squeeze in just another hour of 'me' time before the week begins again... I can hardly look forward to another week of uncertainty. A long time colleague moved on to a new consulting position, finally refusing to tolerate increasingly frustrating demands. His absence is a little heart breaking, though at once motivating. I don't know if I'll be next, or if there waits a mass exodus ahead of me, but change is unavoidable. The only question is how long this period of transition can last.

In my technical and professional life, I'm driven by certain ideals - not so much regarding hardware platforms and information security, but more relating to sustainability and continuous improvement. If certain standards didn't drive my performance, and I didn't believe that I was surrounded by the best of colleagues who value the same, I would have left a long time ago. But the culture of an outsourced IT department is influenced by pressure from all sides, and as much, if not more, by the client as by the global mega-corporation. So, hypothetically speaking, that means one could constantly be caught between psychotic and dysfunctional cultures. No one should be forced to endure that without an end in sight.

I'm glad I had a few good weeks of SNL and election drama to distract me. But it's time to get back to business. What happens at work isn't happening in a vacuum. No outsourcing contract on this scale would be unaffected by the global economic health. So I don't expect what lies ahead to resemble anything but controlled chaos. In the next few months, I'll manage to get through a few more small implementations, but the deliverables will suffer from all this pressure.

It is what it is. I find my inspiration elsewhere. Speaking of which, why not post a Kina-original playlist! Just an update from a blog last August, my dad's last visit at the oncologist was encouraging. I'm cautiously optimistic. Kina sent a moving repy to my email request. Hope to see her on stickam soon...


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